Misunderstandings...

I really don't understand life sometimes. I know I've done things in the past that have always caught up with me... and it seems that they are finally catching up with me now. I had this wonderful friend for about two years and for most of our relationship we liked each other. Only I had a girlfriend. I left the girlfriend though to be with this new girl... and I now know exactly how my ex girlfriend. I was left, alone. While this new girl still wants to be best of friends with me, and she said if she feels the same way again she wants me to be the first to know so we can be together again... she says for now we need to be best of friends because she fell out of love with me. I don't know what else I should do. I have confidence that her and I will get back together, and I really hope and feel that her and I are together forever. We were supposed to be... she told me first that she wanted to be with me forever. I can't be angry with her though... I really can't. I feel so much for her that I just can't be angry with her... but it doesn't stop me from drinking a 6-pack of Sam Adams tonight... it won't stop me. I'll also be going to the gym everyday from now on since the only thing that restricts me now is my band. I love my band and I have the feeling that we will get famous some day... There's too much talent in the band for it not to be recognized. I have an awesome voice according to people... Mikey is just one of the best guitarists I have ever heard, Matt is awesome bassist... and he was never classically trained or anything... and Mick who has been playing drums since he came out of the womb is just awesome... I need to still have hope for everything... I don't know how to be emo so I can't sit here and think that the world is going to end because the love of my life left me. If it was really meant to be then she will come back to me, she will find her way back to me. I wish I really understood how love worked, because then maybe I'd stop hurting from all of this... but it's something that we have to deal with. It'll be fine one day I guess. Until then I think that everyone should come out and see "Man Who Flies" this Saturday in Syracuse... We are playing at a place called Funk N' Waffles. It's going to be awesome. Hope to see everyone there.